Here I wait

I sit with such reticence and wait for my time,

I step out on faith only to be unsure,

I see your face filled with such nuance,

With the look of just not knowing.

I want to reach out and touch you,

But I’m afraid I’ll get hurt,

See I have led a life full of nostalgia,

Because I tend to be afraid of anything new.

I have been wronged so many times,

That my blood flows freely with rage,

I’m a ticking time bomb, and anything can set me off.

I am one with many predilections,

But always yearning for what’s different.

Life is already preconcerted,

It’s not always what you make it.

Yet you are voracious,

And I give freely.

Will you gladly accept or gladly take advantage?

See I’m not sure that I completely know you,

It’s this feeling held deep inside that I cannot shake,

But only time will tell what’s to come,

So here I wait.

-Maliyah

June 28, 2004

7:50am