Letter From the After Life
I’m dead now, there’s no turning back,
Faithful friendships were something that I always lacked.
Its funny looking back on how many people said they’d be hurt if I died,
But they never once tried to help me all the times that I cried.
Oh now that I’m gone you wanna play like you were always here,
Well what happened all those times I needed you to face all my fears?
You tell everyone that you love me and you blame yourself for this tragedy,
You say this shit for your inner conscience…all you want is pity,
Think of all the times I told you I had no where to go,
Before you would help me, you’d sell your fucking soul.
Remember this, for every party you went to, I stayed home and cried,
When I was down and would ask for help you’d only sigh.
You didn’t give a fuck about what I was going through,
You just wanted to get off the phone, get drunk, and as usual just do you.
So please don’t act like you care now,
Doing me the way you did was fucking foul.
Don’t say things that aren’t true,
Like you love me and anything for me you’d do.
It started a while ago, my realization that your feelings were fake,
And that advantage of me you would take.
You knew everything about me before there was an “us”,
So save the lame excuse, you never loved me, it was only lust.
So please save the eulogy and all the fake cries,
Because everything we had was based solely on lies.
You forgot about me, when you knew I was depressed over you,
Now you feel like I felt, cause now you see me in everything you do.
Sorry to say that memories won’t fade,
They were implanted in your mind, when in this coffin my body was laid.
Now you’ll know what it feels like to have no one,
So I hope that it was worth it when you left me and you had a lot of fun.
Don’t worry you still have your whole life ahead of you, the good and the bad,
But I’m in this excavated space for all eternity all because of you, that’s sad.
I hold my blame for the suicide too,
But it wouldn’t have happened, had it not been for you.
What I face is a catharsis,
Though I’m gone, I still feel pain, and it’s you that I miss.
In time you’ll forget about what we shared,
So go ahead and forget it now, its clear that you never cared.
In my life you caused a lot of strife,
But now it’s my turn, here’s your letter from the after life.
-Maliyah
August 25, 2003
4:34am
Faithful friendships were something that I always lacked.
Its funny looking back on how many people said they’d be hurt if I died,
But they never once tried to help me all the times that I cried.
Oh now that I’m gone you wanna play like you were always here,
Well what happened all those times I needed you to face all my fears?
You tell everyone that you love me and you blame yourself for this tragedy,
You say this shit for your inner conscience…all you want is pity,
Think of all the times I told you I had no where to go,
Before you would help me, you’d sell your fucking soul.
Remember this, for every party you went to, I stayed home and cried,
When I was down and would ask for help you’d only sigh.
You didn’t give a fuck about what I was going through,
You just wanted to get off the phone, get drunk, and as usual just do you.
So please don’t act like you care now,
Doing me the way you did was fucking foul.
Don’t say things that aren’t true,
Like you love me and anything for me you’d do.
It started a while ago, my realization that your feelings were fake,
And that advantage of me you would take.
You knew everything about me before there was an “us”,
So save the lame excuse, you never loved me, it was only lust.
So please save the eulogy and all the fake cries,
Because everything we had was based solely on lies.
You forgot about me, when you knew I was depressed over you,
Now you feel like I felt, cause now you see me in everything you do.
Sorry to say that memories won’t fade,
They were implanted in your mind, when in this coffin my body was laid.
Now you’ll know what it feels like to have no one,
So I hope that it was worth it when you left me and you had a lot of fun.
Don’t worry you still have your whole life ahead of you, the good and the bad,
But I’m in this excavated space for all eternity all because of you, that’s sad.
I hold my blame for the suicide too,
But it wouldn’t have happened, had it not been for you.
What I face is a catharsis,
Though I’m gone, I still feel pain, and it’s you that I miss.
In time you’ll forget about what we shared,
So go ahead and forget it now, its clear that you never cared.
In my life you caused a lot of strife,
But now it’s my turn, here’s your letter from the after life.
-Maliyah
August 25, 2003
4:34am
