I've Lost My Way

No one can comprehend my mentality,

It’s on another level next to spirituality.

Don’t judge what you don’t know,

Or I might just tell you, I told you so.

You can handle anything, so can you handle this,

Wait, not just this one problem, I have a whole list.

The angels spoke to me last night,

They said I’ve lost my way and I’m out of God’s site.

I’m in the final battle between good and bad,

Only I don’t know which side I’m on, isn’t that sad.

I’m fighting the demons over my soul,

But I’m tired and scared and with them I might go.

I know you see straight through me like a glass,

So help me, I’ve grown too weak, and I’m sinking fast.

It’s becoming dark and I can no longer see,

But I feel the devil closing in on me.

Thoughts of suicide run through my head,

He’s taking me over; I’m as good as dead.

Everything’s happening just so fast,

Nothings in focus, its only overcast.

I’m getting hot and I hear retched screams,

Please take me away for nothing is what it seems.

Everything has come to a halt,

It’s getting light now, this isn’t what I thought.

I open my eyes and see that I’m in my bed,

What just happened, am I dead?

Was this a dream or God’s final try,

Or is this what you see and feel when you die?

I’m trapped in this world there’s no where to go,

So I’m waiting here with no feelings and no soul.

Everyone has forgotten that I exist,

For I hold no importance, I’m just another number on this list.

-Maliyah

August 14, 2003

11:44pm