Misunderstood

Almost a year you took care of me,

I was grateful though you couldn’t see.

You were always so busy doing you,

I was depressed, I didn’t know what to do.

When I met you, you were too good to be true,

But I wanted someone to love me, so I gave myself to you.

At first things were good,

But then I began to see that I was misunderstood.

You didn’t know what you were looking for,

But me…I wanted so much more.

I wasn’t the best person back when there was an “us”,

But I had love for you, for me you only had lust.

So I’m sitting here recalling what he had,

I step back into reality, was I really that bad.

At times, I sit for hours and cry,

All others, I just want to die.

I can’t believe you’ve turned into what you are,

 I hold my blame, but I know me, myself couldn’t have pushed you that far.

You promised that you would never hurt me,

Then why do you ignore me, I’m not dumb, I see that you do it purposely.

I love you and hate you at the same time,

Part of me still wishes you were mine.

Maybe I’ll get over you, maybe I won’t,

Maybe you love me and maybe you don’t.

-Maliyah

July 19, 2003

2:33pm